Highway Of Life

how's life has been so far?
well so far, so good. but i just felt like Sarawak is way too far from home.
Ive never been so homesick till im at the point where i kept on thinking home, family and friends during my mind was completely blank.

I've been wanting to make a new post since day ONE I was here, but my times were stolen for SO MANY FREAKING TIMES with assignments,presentations, videos, meetings, group meeting,club meeting and all the freaking busy stuff that i thought wasn't really necessary then but now no more :)

In less than a week I'm about to be a college student. WOW. I'm about to enter the university's life. It feels like I'm a baby again, learning how to walk, crawl and etc. it is so nerve-wracking to even talk about college life. idk how to even express what I'm feeling currently, let me be me. Let me feel it all alone. The best is to make everyone happy and so does me! I'm no so excited for this new phase of life yet still I'm not sad. Is this even normal?? Anyways all i wanted to jot here is, to all my close friends' yang study dekat or jauh, please don't ever change who you guys were, be true to yourself, work hard for what you've been dreaming and for most I'll miss you guys so much. don't ever forget me living over the sea, eventhough I'm still here in MALAYSIA. 

I have found my new hobby now, which is taking vids. Well, actually I was just doing it for fun and filling up the memory. And so I started taking videos of many things till this one idea came up from a friend of mine telling me to start vlogging. Whilst my intention was not trying to be fame nor what. It's just that they love watching me recording stuff which also brings laughter to them. Feels so good to make other people happy with what I'm doing.

A few days ago I was so hyper with my insta-stories which I kept on posting vids about what's happening around me and so I did make a 15second vid asking my friend's whether should I or shouldn't I start vlogging. Shockingly nearly 70% from all replied with an answer a BIG YES with a sidenote telling me that they'll support me in what I do. Couldn't felt more bless than ever. So thankful and blessed for having the supportive and sporting family and friends. So I did record my first vlog yesterday and edit them approximately as I arrived homed.

InshaAllah there will be more soon! Can't wait to do more. In hope will get more support from all of my friends. Feel free to watch them on my youtube channel. Click here.

Alhamdulilah, Alhamdulilah & Alhamdulilah!

I've just landed here in KLIA, and already starting my new post here at the airport. While waiting for my cousin to pick us up we head off to McDonald for filling up our hunger. Wait I did mention that I'm at KLIA right? yes. Just got back from Medina and Mecca for our pilgrims. One phrase I say when we (my family) landed was " I wanna come back again" 1001 words still couldn't describe how was Umrah like. Its just so nice, calm, peace and the feels of doing ibadah 24/7 all the freaking time. Even shopping counts as ibadah if we "niat" positive one. Being there makes me feel so close to Allah, my religion, ibadah and all. I just wished that I could feel the same way here as for how I was in Mecca and Medina. Getting to perform prayers in Masjid Al Haram and Masjid An-Nabawi is just so much love and peace. No, not saying that its not that same as how we perform in a normal Masjid but its just the feels that bring me closer to Him. It's different feels that makes me feel so close to Him. Always.

Though this was not my first time here, it was my second one with my family.

But this time, it 360 degrees way more different than before. Maybe because the first visit was me being way too small and not yet mature. Which I still can't think of anything else solat following my mum. If she sujud then I do the same if she ruku' and I do the same. It's just the typical kids do when they know nothing but act like they can think big and talk annoyingly much but in a cute way. I was that one kind of a young girl. Oh! The first Umrah was when I lived in Doha, Qatar and rode a bus along the journey for about 16hours long. Which I was way too hyper back then. Its funny when I thought about it.

Back to the original page.

Syukur, that I was given the chance to be tetamu Allah to perform Umrah. I am so blessed for everything. For every hikmah, rahmah, hidayah and barakah given by Him, the All Mighty. Couldn't write much about this, it's just wordless to explain on how the situation was like but Alhamdulilah i get to complete perform my 5times prayer everyday in Masjid Al Haram and Masjid An-Nabawi. Here's a a little hadis from our beloved Messenger; stating that

"From Abu Hurayrah anhu Sallallu Allah 'Alaihi Wasallam has said, "Doing a prayer in my mosque (Masjid Al Nabawi in Madinah) is better than 1000 times prayers in other mosques except the Haram."

16 MARCH, KUALA LUMPUR; 

"report saying around 8K students from 400K blah bla bla.................... Sijil Pelajaran Malaysia 2016"



it's finally d-day that the 99's waiting for. some get nerves, while some get a headache, while some don't even care (since they have loads of money for the uni-life expenses; which doesn't even care about applying for a scholarship) tonnes of pressure was on my shoulder like truly hanging like how earring hung up haha. But TRUE, I was half-dead-half-alive, as every minute comes it shivers me as if every dead cell in my body turn out alive back. woah! skipping the whole moments which I genuinely can't even describe how it happens. // Alhamdulillah, All praises to Allah. my results satisfy me so does my friend's, it's so good to be true that all of us are happy with our achievements, again Alhamdulillah. It's amazingly true that Allah has a better plan for each of us, from how we were born to how we will end our lives and follows the hereafter lives.. each moment is just like a mosaic which proves that every circumstance of life is just a small pieces from another to shape a complete life. let me just do a lil bit expression message here; 



again, Congratulation to y'all ladies, I am superbly proud of each one of you. I mean it, seriously! I'm glad that you've guys did the best your very best which actually helps way more than a lot in each paper. It was a real 6D ride of roller-coaster during high school for each of us. Give yourself a pat on your shoulder for the great hardworking. Be proud of yourself and yes good luck on the next chapter of students' life again, but this time a little much tougher than the usual which you would probably think about finance, savings, and again struggle. ALL THE BEST & I love you guys (*virtual internet hugs, much tighter hugs than usual*) 


back to the page that we were supposed to, SPM has been a big impact in my life. Which I obviously wouldn't want to repeat. Alhamdulillah again for this achievements. 

*scroll back up and stare at the picture for about 5secs with a bit of happy inner feelings* As shown, it is The 50th edition of TEKNIKA, my school's magazine. The editing is noteworthy. couldn't thank the school's SR Team more, they are amazing! Every event that happens throughout last year was captured and printed on each page, thankfully. I wished that I did vlogs every day of 2016 so that I could capture every bitter-sweet moments of high school life and save them in a memory card, and watched it over and over again in the future. But I wasn't clever enough back then and so I didn't do any of it. regretting of not doing them. urgh. why (?) Well that's why the school's magazine is so useful, well at least flipping each page give me a scene in my own mind on how the day happens to work out. 

so many duties,
so busy minds,
busy running around, 
going to discipline room back and forth, 
late to classes, 
get questioned for everything 
and
sleeping
lazying 
dreaming
in classes


AH, I MISS ALL OF IT. 
here, I attached some of the pictures taken during the results day. 







to more gathering with friends in the future! 
& to SPM Candidates of 2016 congratulations on your results, and don't forget to say Alhamdulillah again and again and again. 

Love,
writer itself 
xoxo 

Hello,


so how does it feel like living in the year of 2017? motivational? regreting? self-unconscious? or more like a common answer "ok-ok" For me, so far so great. Always been grateful for another beautiful day ahead except the minor downs in certain seconds. Recently, I've been some to the famous clothes shop somewhere in the area Bangsar. Which is mostly known for the 'rich-people-lepak-places" well, of course, my reason was not lepak-ing or something. It's just that I have to go there for some personal reasons along with that I stopped by at the 'XYZ' shop.

Was looking around and wandering around the shop looking at all the drop dead gorgeous tops and paired kept finding the matchy-matchy bottom for them all. I mean if we couldn't afford it, just play around being a stylist for some self-comforting. what makes me think even harder is actually, the stylist person working in the shop herself was just dressing simple and casual. by simple, I mean seriously, SIMPLE. She was dressed in a white tee with the V-neck collar and a little bit cutting showing her S body line paired with grey slimming tracksuit which doesn't fit tight and a very simple slip-on.

Don't get me wrong! It's not about her look that I'm judging about it's about how simple yet good-looking clothes she can fit in. I swear it look so freaking good. The point I'm about to tell is that we yes WE, kind of most of us especially girls trying to look good every day by wearing the top with bat wing hand style, tops with ruffle, pleated jeans, boots, heels, fit baju and so much more. We do so much effort to look good. But have ever try to look simple and good? Have we ever try to wear any colours of tee shirts and pair with a very simple bottoms to look so fashionable and still be as simple as we could? Even the professionals want to look casual all the time.

So, think again aite?
NO, I'm not saying that you can't but sometimes take a break and mess your mind to think on what fancy clothes should you buy to look the best ever. Just NO.

Be minimalist
Be bold and trust yourself that you look good in all apparel.
I know its so random but sometimes it is the moment that be the lessons, right?


To many more random post but worth reading them.

<3

As days comes, people of the 99's are now starting to do the countdown for the result's day. I always have the feeling of nervous, shaking and even restless when even talking about it. I wish I knew my result beforehand so that I could decide whether to bring my mum along on the results day, or not. the points are because; 

1. If mama comes with; if I get good results it will inshaAllah make her happy but if it's bad one I'm pretty sure she'll be upset but pretend that she's not whilst I'm the one who feels bad about myself too 

2. If mama doesn't come; if its a good result; I should be regretting not facing the reality with her but if it's bad one; I'll have no shoulders to lean and to have the positive words 

 but now I am not thinking about the bad sides, just have to stay positive all the time but not to be so confident with it. InshaAllah Allah has prepared the best for me, and may He ease everything for me and my friends future. wishing all the best to those who's facing the result day soon.

nervous.
omg.
bye.